"Ya know, growin up I was molested couple times,..." Revelations indeed. This section is probably the most important evidence in the BBTs never really reported in the mainstream press. Oh, they mentioned Harlow saying "...actually seeing that fucker going down actually it's sick but it made me feel better inside. It almost felt like I got revenge..." but they never explained exactly what Harlow meant by that.
Press squeamishness on the subject? Perhaps. But the thing is...a court of law is no place for sqeamishness. So, these revelations by Harlow will very likely be brought up by the DA if this case goes to trial. It goes directly to Harlow's motive: "It almost felt like I got revenge."
Given this importance and seriousness of this issue, I am going to quote (and muse on) this section pretty extensively.
First, a slightly off topic but important digression. This here is what I call the "Day 2 Harlow Apology," or the "Harlow Apology Lite." Here we see Harlow apparantly remorseful for those suspicious fingers that pointed at Sean and Grant after the murder. This, and the even more dramatic "Day 1 Harlow Apology" proove beyond a shadow of a doubt Sean and Grant had no planning role in the murder. Moving on...HARLOW CUADRA: Ya know, growin up I was molested couple times, and it's what kind of made the whole decision kind of easy, almost a little too easy...
GRANT ROY: Ah huh.
SEAN LOCKHART: Do you ever talk about it, what happened I mean with... you said you were, you were abused.
So, Harlow's mom Gladis knew of the abuse too. Although, it is not clear from this transcript if:1) Harlow told his mom to deny it; or
2) if Harlow's mom told Harlow to deny it;
...if anyone ever contacted them regarding it. The wording could be read either way. In any case, it indicates a deep family desire to keep this scandal hidden.
You know, it does not take a PhD in psychology to guess how this secret must have knawed at Harlow, and struggled to find release: "...actually seeing that fucker going down actually it's sick but it made me feel better inside."
Continuing...
So, it was a stepfather. No indication of how old Harlow was, but Harlow hints that his sister Melissa and brother David were both hypothetically at risk too. Harlow says his silence and self-sacrifice spared these younger siblings from abuse, but...how would he know this for sure? Perhaps they abuse victims too? And if so...will they be called to the witness stand, to describe in detail exactly what they went through?Come to think of it...will the stepfather be called into testify? In theory, he could plead the fifth...but with immunity granted, that obstacle could be overcome if need be, I imagine.
And what of Harlow's mother Gladis? Will she be called into testify as to what she knew of the stepfather's abuse, and when she knew about it?
Thus it seems practically the whole family could potentially be called to testify to this dark family secret, should Harlow opt to proceed to trial. It's relevance to Harlow's motive for this brutal crime is too critical to ignore.
Moving on...
This is the money quote. Right here, Harlow for all intents and purposes confesses to his role in the murder. By projecting the image of his abusive stepfather onto Bryan Kocis (and what we know of Bryan's habits around young attractive boys, this was perhaps not difficult), he was able to, at this moment, turn a murder for debt relief and financial benefit into a crime of passion as well.
You know, I recall Elm and a few other posters from way back constantly arguing that with a neck slash and 28 post-mortem stab wounds, at least one of them to the groin...this murder HAD to be a crime of passion. Well, I'll be hornswaggled...it appears Elm was right again! Just as I noted in an earlier musing (ie, 'the murderer knows the location of the missing Masarati'), another early Elm prediction has come true. Elm is on a 2-for-2 hot streak in these musings.
And after this emotionally taxing crime, Harlow mentions he could not sleep (despite various sleep aids). Now, Harlow goes on to list other symptoms of post-murder guilt he labored under:
So, in addition to insomnia, he could not check emails, handle customer service, or otherwise concentrate on his work. Yeah, killing tends to have that effect on people, I guess. Very stressful. And now, we wonder, what has Joe to contribute to the conversation at this moment? Does he have any post-murder psychic trauma symptoms to relate?
JOSEPH KEREKES: I'm happy.
And...there you have it. This right here illuminates the key mental differences between the two murderers. Harlow was driven by some very dark personal demons, which the murder did not really vanquish...at best, he exchanged one set of demons for another, which now haunt him.
Joe, OTOH, seems to me to be just a psychopath.
10 comments:
Jim--
Great post. Yep. Thrust wounds to the groin would indicate revenge for a sexual wrong/passion.
For the Maserati whereabouts at the time of the murder, see Grant Roy's Day 2, Preliminary Hearing Testimony as reported on PC's blog. My source for this information came from June 2007 and so it fits with what Grant reported.
Molestation and Rape are shattering and powerful forces on human actions and passions. Unless it is YOUR personal experience you simply cannot understand the RAGE and HATE produced.
It was public knowledge that Bryan Kocis was a Rapist and Molester.
That made it "easy" for Harlow who had to have a "good" motivation to go along with Joes plan.
Lets not forget this was Joe's idea NOT Harlows!
That is HUGE!
"I was molested a few times"
THAT answers what was unanswered IMO-
"felt like I got revenge"
I always thought that does not make sense, does not go with this picture at all.
But there it is!
Ugly, but there it is IMO-
Harlows motive.
If that was "out there" before I for one would have seen tings differently, sooner.
Thank you jim for a great post!
This made me gag when PC published it on or about 20 FEB. I'm like yak gimme another beer, and as I recall Elm was getting dizzy, too. Poor fucker Harlow. Some day when no further legal jeopardy will attach, I've got to ask him why. None of it makes sense to me. Not Bryan Kocis and his shit. Not none of the Cobra boys. Not Joe and Harlow. Not anyone in any way mixed up in this crazy scene.
Yeah, Elm's comment over there was:
"elmysterio said...
Tragic is all I have to say about this whole thing."
...and on this point, we are in rare agreement.
"If that was "out there" before I for one would have seen tings differently, sooner.
Thank you jim for a great post!"
Thank PC! This was publically unknown about until he posted the BBTs.
Like I said the press quoted the "...actually seeing that fucker going down actually it's sick but it made me feel better inside. It almost felt like I got revenge..." part in the news articles, but never explained it, or put it in context.
And like you (and Geoff, and Elm, etc...), I was dazzled when I read it.
The full explanation by Harlow is hugely important to understanding what went down, and why.
yes jim, that is true.
Thank you pc.
"The full explanation by Harlow is hugely important to understanding what went down and why"
Yes, Yes!
I was just going through my old emails and Harlows sisters email address was there melissam_---man@yahoo.com
Something always struck me about the last 3 letters of her first name.
Jim--
This whole tragedy starts with certain key parties desiring to turn Sean into a sexual cash money machine, a mere commondity not to develop affection for another man, just gratify others until he would have become unfeeling, a disgusting way to treat another man because he is perceived as having no personal resources save a sexual allure, to be dependent on the kindness of others and the smug benefice of Bryan Kocis with acquiesence of Lee Bergeron, through apparent greed, the desire to personally control and manipulate that young man, use him up in three to four years when his shelf-life with fans would have expired (at least in the scenario the instigators were designing) and leaving him to either his own devices, without a domicile and whatever money he could amass, provided he was not suckered into reinvesting with Cobra Video, and more likely, driven by the stress of his lack of status and home and the pressures of living, again in their scenario, into doing himself in. I can empathisize with Harlow, but I cannot condone his killing of Kocis.
I find the lame attempt at perverting justice by Demetrius Fannick both small minded and morally reprehensible and certainly hope Judge Olszewski's ruling rebukes, sanctions, and puts Demerius Fannick on notice that his version of Ringling Brothers, Barnum and Bailey's Circus will not be tolerated under any circumstances in his courtroom.
"The full explanation by Harlow is hugely important to understanding what went down, and why."
... and could also aid as additional motive for the prosecution.
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